sabah.
i miss sabah. i miss those days. of having to worry. abt tings. that i dun usually need to worry. and not needing to worry abt tings i usually worry. in sabah. its all abt love. friendship. togetherness. yet. here in sg. competition. stress. haix. i really feel so much more at home in sabah than here at home. i feel pushed to the edged.. i jux love the life in sabah. i love u guys. for being there for me. its ur physical presence tt calms my mental soul.. i love the ppl there. i love u for accepting me as me.. i love it. i can be myself.. gossipping in the toilet like an auntie.. i dun give a shit. i love my life there. i hav a life there. waiting for me. i noe. it may seem like i'm jux deceiving myself.. but i feel that i really hav a life there.. i dun belong in tis world. of high tech. i would rather. i go there help plant trees. n do tings. have fun. i m willing to give up my all here. to go over. yes.
at some pt in time.. we are faced wif difficulties.. we often search for a place. where our minds can b at ease. n tt place for me. is in SABAH. the hall. the long road. the toilets. the RIC. i love it. the tings we did there.. the friends tt i made there.. the 2 weeks overseas in sabah wif my friends. helpped me get to noe u better.. n help u get to noe me better. i love u all my friends. those in yj. those in sabah. i seriously wish. i can hug each n everyone of u. telling u how much i apprecaite all ur efforts tt u put in during the trip.. i oso wanna tell u how much u guys. shaped my life.. shaped my tinking.. showed me how. to actually b me. i'm truely touched by ur stories.. really. rem those nites. where the candle lights. yes. i miss those nites. rem those times where we shared our life journey.. b4 we went for the trip. i guess we didnt noe each other well.. and d some of us.. didnt share as much. i was touched by the fact tt our closeness in sabah actually led these ppl to actually share more of their life wif me.. yes i m. esp. ppl like swee lian, clarence. . i will nv forget ur stories.. revan as well.. perhaps. each n everyone of us.. hav a story to tell.. yet.. i realised tt i m way way more fortunate than most of u. i do realise tt.. no. i'm not really proud of it.. cos it is not my acheivements.. but those of my parents.. i feel ashamed of myself actually. bcos. its like. u ppl.. are all not as well of as me.. yet u guys are still jux as strong.. like becca. i'm really touched by u.. yes.. haix. sometimes. i envy u guys. for going thru wat u went thru. cos. i noe u guys are strong.. unlike me.. i've been living in my greenhse for a long long time.. i dun even tink i'm eva gonna step out of it.
i feel like its so useless of me. it seems that sabah. actually helpped me grow up. in the 2 weeks. i've seen the power of love. the power of friendship at work.. the bond i hav wif my friends. its jux so amazing. i may not b as close to them now.. i may not even sae hi to them.. but . deep down. i really love u guys. haix.
when i was there.. i actually hope to share a special bond wif each n everone of them.. yes, i manageed. but there are some ppl.. where the bond is weak.. like mine n swee lian.. yet! amazingly.. we, in skool, do sae hi n bye.. n i do try to tok to her~ yes.. its a pity i didnt really get to interact wif kevin.. yes.. i didnt really get to chat wif u... n i do admit.. i keep to 'my clique' quite often.. haha~ i'm sorrie.. yea.. haha~
haix. i really miss those days.. when i'm down n out.. i tink back on those days.. believing that. since i can b so happy in those days.. i too can be happy.. now.. yes. i love u.
i really love u guys. haix. missing all of u aplenty. love u.
