Friday, February 25, 2005
Jie.. ur sadness spread to me le..
Hmm.. anyway yuh.. in the midst of the stillness of the night.. i just thought of sabah again..
Memories.. i wonder if memories do last forever.. and if forever even existed..
Yups.. to others.. what we are rattling about in here might seems stupid..
It may seems pointless to some people on why we keep thinking or even missing something that's been over for so long..
But you know it, i know it.. that this experience is rare and unique to each and everyone of us..
And yea.. thanks to this trip that i got to know wonderful people like you guys..
And its abit amazing that our friendship actually only grows even more after the trip..
Hehs.. yupps yupps..
Though in school we might not see each other often like how we got to see each other EVERY single moment.. its still the friendship forged that counts..
Time flies.. and it will continue flying..
It will not stop for us to relive or even regret things in life..
Hmm.. treasure whatever you have..
Life is short.. enjoy it..
Bleahx.. just blabbering some nonsense here..
Hehs.. miss you guys lots~
I do hope another gathering is coming up soon..
Ok i think i should go.. its almost 3am..
s0uLz [18:35]
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Thursday, February 24, 2005
sabah. i miss u.
[listening to Sabasket Athem: take me to ur heart, MLTR]
tt song brings back memories.. i rem clearly.. on the day of our departure..
on the bus.. i sang tt song. along wif several others. at the air port.. many of us were tired.
haix.
i rem the times. in sabah.. when i was feeling down.. feeling lonely..
i jux took my slping bag. armed wif a pen n my diary..
i turn on tis song. sat there.. n started writing..
at one pt. or another. i fell aslp. to tis song.
come to tink of it. tis june. will b our 1yr anni.
wow. time flies.
i rem the times. when we didnt even know each other.
i didnt tok to u guys.
i didnt noe u guys.
i didnt care abt who u guys are.
but.
i made friends. friends tt always stood by me. n still standing now.
we may not keep in contact as often. we may not see each other as often.
we may even forget the times we spent in sabah.
but i hope. we wont forget. the friendship we forged. the moment. sabasket is formed.
i m sad. tt the trip came to an end. i was tired pysically. at the sepilok airport on our way to brunei. i was v sianx. seriously. n if u guys noe. my v good bros n sis.. took a wonderful pic of me slping.. yes~ its well taken.. i dun really wanna go back. call it escaping reality.. or wateva u wan. but. i noe. life. is going back to normal. it was a good break from the normality of life. but. to return to my way of life. it was a warm feeling.. yet. it took a bit of courage to feel. BACK AT HOME..
many of u may hav been bored wif tis song.. tt till now. i m listening to. but. i love tis song.
tis song. contains all my memories. expresses all my feelings. listening to it. often brings tears to the eye. n i try to listen to it.. only if i'm feeling down..
brings me back to the days of laughter. sadness. loneliness. a mixture of all my emotions.
actually. the days in sabah.. is slipping away from me.. when i m in the midst of all tt hw frenxy..
it is only now.. tt i slow down. n search for. account for. look for. explain for. all the feelings. the bottled emotions of my heart.
in the midst of my laughter. my happiness.. my anger? in sabah.. i guess.. the one side tt i nv showed anyone in YJ is. the sadness tt i feel. no one has eva seen me sad b4. i mean the YJcians. even in ZHSS. but. everytime i embrace sadness. i embrace it alone. i dun wanna let sadness spread. u may not agree. but. sadness. does. spread. n hav an effect on ppl.
no. i'm not encourraging to keep all ur feelings bottled up alone. nope. share it. sometimes. it really helps. i agree..
i dunno y suddenly i hav so much emotions running thru me. i'm feeling disappointed wif myself. n i listened to tis song. n. it made me write wat i feel down here. i really thk u guys. for having tis blog. for listening to me tok abt my feelings.
come to tink of it. i'm not really embracing my sadness alone now. cos. i'm sharing wif u guys. =)
tts a heartening thought.
i rem the nite. the nite aft the bbq. nope. i'm not really sad. every ting goes in a circle. wats starts mux end. tts how tings work. haix. yes. sadly.
i'm starting to understand the meaning of regret even more in my short span of writing time. as in. i seem to understand the meaning of regret.. as i type tis blog.. i really hate. not being able to hold on to as much of sabah as i can. haix. i really wanna go back. but, as someone told me b4. going back would nv be the same. tings will nv happen for a second time. tings will change. the only ting we can do. is to relieve those memories. n make new ones. while the old ones. stays in our head. haix.
i guess. tts all for now. i really miss everyting. i need it. i need a break. i need. i need. haix.
i love sabah. i miss it. nv gonna get over it.
Anonymous [13:30]
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Monday, February 21, 2005
hehs.. really sorry about that..
some last minute stuff crop up at home that day that's why i can't make it..
and i think a few others overslept =/
yups..
=)
BeCcA
s0uLz [14:17]
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Monday, February 14, 2005
happy happy valentine's day!! =)although the
sepilok youths and
sabasketeers are in different countries, our frenships are not lost and will never be. we may be far apart in distance, but
close in heart.
some frens are like
stars. we do not see them all the time, but we know they are always there.
miss you guys...
MEILING [22:08]
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